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Fading in Bright Light

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Never did I want to fade in the bright lights.

Never did I want to let go that one hand.

That white light fall upon my body.

It covered me from everywhere.

It made me black.

The light made me dark.

No one could see me on that shinny day.

I was a dark shadow to them.

It started eating my soul.

The white rays consumed my soul which it had turned black.

I was no more alive.

The light pervades eating all the self invented darkness.

But it actually ate my life.

The monochrome light observed all my colours and made me one with her white.

That is how I faded in the light.

 

Rainbow

She wanted to have colours.

Her canvas was blank.

Everyone lied that they had a rainbow

She followed them…

 

They brought her to the darkness.

She was terrified.

She felt a fear beating inside her heart.

She could not speak.

She had her lip under her teeth

She did not want anyone to hear her sobs.

 

She waited for a hand

Which did not exist.

She knew hopelessness could kill her.

 

Someone was walking with a Rainbow.

She saw that person walking around that lane.

Who is it?

She ran to ask for some colours.

But her canvas was black now.

She reached to the person walking with the Rainbow.

It took her to the White land.

A place where she found all the souls she had lost.

 

But here, they have her face painted on the black canvas.

They call it “The Face on the Darkness”.

 

She is dead…

But somewhere she lives.

 

Sealed

Unsaid…

So many things are packed inside.

Because she was stopped in the middle.

He took away the chance from her to complete her argument, or may be he was indifferent.

Her fears wanted to fly out.

But he locked them back with his ignorance.

She had a very pessimistic world view.

He turned her ugly thoughts into reality.

She was sad and wanted a “virgin smile” on her face.

He tried to make her happy with the spoils of others.

She  never wanted to compromise her self -esteem.

But he never lost a chance to shatter the foundation on which the pillars of her confidence stood.

He dismembered her little imaginary cosmos.

And now she is collecting the dispersed elements to compose her universe again…

Her sun, moon, and stars. Where they are?

आत्मविश्वासी हूँ।

छाया बनकर रह गई थी।
दूसरो से उम्मीदे लगा रही थी।
भूल गई कि खुद का भी अस्तित्व है।
रोशनी कहा से मिलती।
जब सारे दरवाजे खुद ही बंद किए थे।
अंधेरा था…

सोचा उठकर खिड़की खोलु।
कमज़ोर थी…

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जो सपने देखे थे खुली आँखो से, पूरे करने रहते है।
हिम्मत हुई, खड़ी हुई।
एक खिड़की खोली,
रोशनी से भरी किरणों ने मेरे मन को भिगो दिया।
रोशनी के छींटे पड़ने पर मेरे मन ने आँखे खोली।
उजाला देखकर आँखे तिलमिलाई।
पर धीरे-धीरे उजाले को कैद करके चमकी।
रोशनी है…
खुद पर भरोसा किए खड़ी हूँ ।
आत्मविश्वासी हूँ।

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